childish illusions?

When I was a little girl I use to believe all the little stars in the sky were angels looking down on us, keeping watch. Shooting stars were our guardian angels falling from heaven to scoop us up and protect us. As I began to drift from child, to teen, to adult I have noticed my failing ability to believe in the extraordinary. The tooth fairy and Santa were the first to go, with them went small childish hopes that made life just a bit more sweeter. Eventually its time for children to grow up and I get it. People grow up and learn that these illusions weren't created to distort and confuse reality but to help children understand things that they arent mature enough to comprehend. For example, when parents tell their children that when they met their spouse it was love at first sight, they dont really mean that exactly. Love as we all know, is more complicated than that. Sure you can start falling for someone on the first date but it's not the same as being in full-fledged, head over heals love with them (that would be lust). Children, I believe, have an inability to truely hate someone let alone not care about people they meet. This is why it's so easy for them to make friends. They arent prejudice or tainted with petty biases therefore they wouldn't really be able to understand that true unconditional love (that doesnt come from a relative) takes more than first sight to fall in love. To me, taking away these small illusions impairs a child from learning or fully understanding some of lifes concepts, lessons, or morals.

what if...

What if today was your last day to spend with someone you really love? would you be selfish with your time with them or would you share with others? If they wanted to do something you never would in a million years would you do it just to be with them? What if the roles were reversed and today was your last day? Who would you want to be with? what would you do? where would you go? what would you say to them? Thats a lot of what if's but how would that one last day be? shouldn't every day be treated as our last?

It's Personal

Bullying should not be tolerated! As I was growing up my brothers were always fun to have around. I especially loved how they would tell jokes and make me laugh. Looking back now I realize most of those jokes were told at someone elses expense. Most of them seemed harmless at the time, Name teasing, picking on someon because of how they look, making fun of someone for their hobbies, other little things such as these. Plenty of times I was at the center of their jokes. Growing up I was never skinny as the boys were. No matter how much I tried to I could never be as small as them. Now that I’m older I find myself having some self esteem problems. I think really l.ittle of myself and wouldn’t have even noticed it except a few friends and my mother pointed it out. This got me thinking about where all this disgust I had for myself had come from. Every time someone would crack a joke about how I had no butt, big boobs, or some excess weight I didn’t just let it pass as a joke, for me it was personal. I kept it all bottled up and critisized my appearance until I began to resent myself.

My brothers, to this day, love to pick on each other. They don’t realize that what they say now is going to stick with someone and shape the opinions they have about themselves. People die everyday as a result of bullying. People need to learn to stand up for those that don’t stand up for themselves, they could end up saving a life.

young with big ears

It's funny thinking how easy it was to make friends in preschool and kindergarten. Now that we're grown it seems silly how things such as looks, money, social status, and other frivolous things get in the way. All our lives we're told to treat everyone as you would like to be treated. How many of us actually follow this simple rule. Sure it's a nice idea but rude behavior has been taught and instilled in each of us at a young age. Children do as they see. If they hear someone speak negatively to another, they in turn bad mouth people they associate with. I have four younger brothers who bring home friends all the time. I will admit they aren't perfect when making and keeping friends but then again who is? A couple of days ago my youngest brother was playing video games with one of his new friends from down the street. They were arguing about the game which caught my attention. I listened for a couple of minutes. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Both boys were calling each other names and telling each other to shut up. As soon as I got them to calm down and Alex went home, I asked my brother where he had learned to be so rude. I felt a bit guilty when he told me he learned it from me and my other brothers fighting. I guess we don't realize what we do and say impacts people we aren't even talking to. Maybe the reason it's so much harder to make friends these days is because we have had years of practice in rudeness.

No work No play.

Long boring days make me appreciate the days that I actually get to do something (such as work or run errands) Sitting around doing nothing is fun every now and then but once you do it often enough it seems to be more draining than actual work. I cant wait to get back to work. I dont see how people can sit back and sponge off the government, life gets really dull when theres nothing to do. Its funny how when I would work I always wished I couldstay home and hang out. Now that thats all I can do until my CNA classes start all I want to do is work or at least do something to stay busy.